...i so totally feel you, and i wish i could help. i hope that the two weeks back home will at least be enjoyable, if not bring something to light.

i'm already in a similar situation to yours, but i'm sure that i will pretty much be in the exact same situation given a couple of years. my only hope now is that i can save up lots of money as you have done to help keep me on my feet while i figure things out...

i know that ideally you would like to leave Japan (whether now or later) with some sort of plan or idea for the future in place. my hope is that you will at least be able to find something small to latch onto in order to pull yourself through the rest of the way.

wishing you the best. :/