[Life]: Permanent Pain is Ruining My Days

[chochajin]

I'm in permanent pain and it sucks so much!

I already mentioned it in my previous entry, but in the past few days it has become worse and worse.
AND I have no freaking idea what is going on!!

My neck and shoulders are stiff and hurt.
Well, that happens sometimes, right? I had that many times before and usually it gets better again after some time without me doing anything.

This time however it's not just my neck and my shoulders, it's also my back, my hip AND the inner side of my left thigh!!!! o_____O'''
The latter one really doesn't make any sense.

At first I thought I maybe had sore muscles, but it just didn't get better at all. In fact, it has gotten worse. And it's only the upper left thigh!!!

I researched a little and there actually seems to be a connection between pain in the thigh(s) and back pain.
However, if you have pain in only one of thighs on the inner side, then it usually comes from playing soccer. WTF????

I swear I haven't done ANYTHING recently that could have caused it!!
Maybe I'm sleepwalking?

"Luckily" my thigh only hurts when I walk or when I touch the muscle(s) there. It's ok when I sit.
However, the rest of my upper body hurts all the time, especially my shoulders and my back. I can't even tell if it's the bones or the muscles, but I guess it's all the muscles.

The issue is that I CAN'T go to a doctor / clinic anymore before I leave for Germany.
I have 3 more days at work and am also busy before work. Then, I have Sunday off and I'm flying on Monday.

I'm just worried how I can manage to survive in Germany with all that pain. It's not a strong pain, but I'm exhausted, cuz it's a permanent pain, no matter what I'm doing, it's always there.
Even if I could go to a doctor before I have to leave, I'm not sure if they could help me right away. And in the worst case I would be told to stay here and not to go to Germany.



I have no idea what's going on, nor do I know what I should do now.

I know that this can have a million of reasons and depending what causes it, there are different ways to deal with it.
But for now, I fear all I can do is bear it somehow.

The pain makes me really exhausted as you can imagine and I have a hard time getting through my day.
Obviously I won't be able to enjoy my stay in Germany like this. It's going to be more like a "survival game".

I wonder why this has to happen NOW ....... I haven't been back home in 2.5 years, you know? :( .......

Comments

[chochajin.livejournal.com]

It's true that this year I've been sick way too often.
Especially if I compare myself to my co-workers. They don't wear masks, they don't gargle, they don't was their hands as often as I do.
In the past few weeks I wore a mask every day, gargled several times a day and washed my hands carefully and yet I got sick yet again. Just came back from the doctor.

Not sure if that's still normal, but I can't consult a doctor in Germany. Health insurances for abroad only pay if it's something you didn't have prior to your departure.

Thanks, I'll try to enjoy it! ^^;

[asahifirsa.livejournal.com]

Ah, but how would they know? Could be something you got from the cramped flight? Sounds like a nerve though. I have the thigh thing sometimes, but it usually goes away within a week at most. There are creams that heat up maybe try some of those on your back before you go to sleep, they help a lot to relieve the pain. There's tons in Japan and a few in Germany as well or you can ask at the pharmacy. They're not too expensive. Just take one that heats up there are also creams that cool.

Have a good flight!