Hey there!~

Thanks so much to everybody who replied to my last entry.
I really appreciate your advice!
For now I won't do anything as I'm busy planning my summer vacation which will start in early August (= very soon).

Actually I planned to FINALLY visit the Ogasawara Islands.
They are registered as World Heritage and can only be reached by a 25.5h ferry ride! (T___T) .....
This is ONE reason why I avoided going until now.

I always REALLY wanted to go because the islands are SO BEAUTIFUL and you'll find certain plants and animals you can't find anywhere else.

However, as I have vacation together with all the Japanese it always gets crowded everywhere.
I was shocked to find out that almost no tickets are available for the ferry from Tokyo to the islands anymore.
And when I looked for accommodations I found out that NOTHING is available anymore.

Okinawa in January 2013

I know that it's mostly my own fault for not planning WAY in advance (yet again ...).
This has become quite a bad habit recently.

It's (probably) my last big vacation here in Japan before I leave, so I wanted it to be something special.
I also wanted to visit the islands, because it's so much more difficult to plan such a trip from abroad ... *sigh*


I'm just angry at myself.
I'm always working so hard and I never put things aside to do them tomorrow. I try to finish everything ASAP ... apart from planning my trips.
I'm sure you've noticed that in the recent years.

The past few times I didn't even plan big trips anymore and just did day trips etc. ... basically because I didn't feel like planning and I was too late to set up a "big and awesome journey" anyways.

I don't know how to describe this, but it's something a lot of you have noticed and mentioned in comments already.
I feel like I work soooooooooooooooo hard on things that might not be worth it, but I can't stop!
There are so many other things that would be more important .. like my own life, having a great vacation, exercising or just relaxing.

I'm not sure if it can be compared to being a drug addict, but it surely feels like I'm doing something I shouldn't, but I just can't stop.
The tricky thing is that it's not really something bad what I'm doing. Working on my blog and all these other things are fun and I do them because I want to, but I'm probably exaggerating too much in terms of how much work and effort I put into it / them.

I wonder if that's one reason that I'm feeling the way I do. Not really depressed, but you know what I mean.


I'm just really angry at myself, but I just CAN'T STOP BEING THAT WAY! :( ....


Anyways, concerning the vacation I'm trying to work on a plan B.
I saw that flights and hotels for Okinawa are still available for that time frame, so I plan visiting more islands on Okinawa, e.g. Ishigaki, Iriomote etc. and / or also go to Hokkaido.
Not sure how that'll work out in the end (1 week Hokkaido / 1 week Okinawa or 2 weeks Okinawa or 2 weeks Hokkaido).
I tend to re-visit Okinawa and explore islands I haven't seen.
After all my first experience was quite horrible (with permanent bad weather this winter ...)


That's all.